The Best-Worst Week - Thursday

Today was not easy.

We went to see my Grampa again, which was lovely, but M was a little crazy. I think I have been letting him off easy this week, trying to be "Fun Mom," and he didn't like it when I was a bit more strict with him because we were in a more restricted environment. THAT did not go over well. When he told me, for the first time ever, "Mom, I don't like you," I burst into tears. Oh, I know, he'll probably say a lot worse, many more times in my life, but the first time hurt. A lot. Especially this week.

It kind of sent me into an emotional tailspin, once the floodgates were open it was difficult to stop - not about what he said, I know he didn't mean it, but it brought up all of the emotions I'm feeling about having to leave them to go back to work. I still made sure I was present and interactive and loving with my kids all day, I just felt an undercurrent of sadness, too.

So there was the nice visit with my Gpa, and also with my sister who came down to meet us. Then she came back to the house to spend the afternoon with us. The kids love my sister, and were all over her with requests for book readings and snuggles.

Plus, when the kids went down for their nap, my sister and I had awesome naps of our own.

This evening we had dinner with one of the ladies from the convent. My super-awesome kids LOVE sushi! M gets really excited about "mee-see" (miso) soup, and they both love salmon sashimi and shrimp tempura. 

Around the kids' bedtime, I started to feel sad again. While I was snuggling with N before putting him down, I lost it and started sobbing into his sweet little head which was nuzzled into my neck. I guess it must have tickled him or something because he started giggling uncontrollably, which made me laugh. It was such an awesome moment. He just laughed and laughed until he got the hiccups which made us both laugh even more. What a perfect little boy.

And when I put M to bed, I told him I loved him. He said, "I love you, mom." Perfect.